For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother’s womb.  I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.  My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place, when I was woven together in the depths of the earth.   Your eyes saw my unformed body; all the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be. 

How precious to me are your thoughts, God! How vast is the sum of them!  Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand—when I awake, I am still with you.

Psalm 139:13 – 18

These words of the Lord are taking on a new meaning for me as I realize that my blood count, etc., indicate that I will not be able to be the picture of health that I have been for these past 90 or so years, that the processes can be slowed some but there is no cure.  I am about to begin a process where my symptoms will be slowed some if I am understanding correctly.  My records over the past few years show a steady decline.  Now, needing a downward correction.

This Psalm is so precious to me just now.  What I am slowly discovering God knew from the beginning of my life. And what a life it is and has been!  He not only created and nurtured me, but he was there in every stage of my long, long life.  In no way could I even begin to describe how God sustained my physical health through the years, but he did.  While in my spirit, God kept me satisfied and believing.  That continues as weakening health issues are now the new way to walk.

So, as the Psalmist wrote, God’s thoughts to me are vast, outnumbering the grains of sand!  That is amazing!  My thoughts toward God are no less real and healing.